Hurt and Forgiveness in Friendship

I was really frustrated with a good friend for not making time for me. I knew that she was very busy studying for finals. I knew that she had not done well earlier in the quarter, and was struggling to stay afloat in her classes. I knew she was not intentionally brushing me off. But I was bitter at what I felt was unreciprocated effort. I begrudged her for not prioritizing spending time with me, even though she was really just being a responsible student. I was even more annoyed, given that she was about to graduate in a few weeks. I felt like I was always the one reaching out to make plans to hang out in the remaining short time, even though I was extremely busy myself at the time. I was juggling five classes, leading three organizations at the law school, on the board of a journal, and serving on the Graduate Student Council myself. If I could find time to hang out, why couldn't she? My self-righteous frustration led me speak harsh words the day before she left. I regret my words. I was so selfish. I'm trying really hard to be more gracious and empathetic. I'm trying to be kinder and more thoughtful. The world does not revolve around me, and everyone is fighting their own battle. Having a toxic, self-entitled friend like the way I was to her is not a battle anyone should have to deal with. Thank you for forgiving me, friend.