Self-forgetfulness

Could my perceived awkwardness of an interaction stem from an obsession with self (self-consciousness is the euphemism). Worrying about not carrying myself the right way. Wondering what others think of me. I start thinking of interesting rejoinders or what I'll say next to keep the conversation going. Because the worst thing would be for conversation to stall, right? Instead of intently listening, I end up waiting to talk. It's not that I'm not sincere. But despite my best intentions, I am not fully present. I'm praying for self-forgetfulness this year.

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